Shop Update

Shop update and little shop story

I’ve finally listed all the stickers I’ve been sitting on since mid June(?). It’s difficult to pick and choose when I place my order because I can’t order EVERYTHING. However, it’s monumental to actually list them when I receive them. I have to take photos and I find that it’s trickier in winter when I don’t have very many daylight hours to get it done. Not to mention, it’s also cold and I’m in my hibernation mode. How do people stay motivated?

I thought to share a story today about my little shop. I don’t think I’d ever be able to leave my day job to pursue this full time; that would be the dream. So if I know that in my heart of hearts, why do I compare myself to those who are doing this as their full time job/career?

I’ve had big dreams and grand plans when I first started. I looked at others for (so called) inspiration and motivation…then to realise, even if I had all the same tools, my output (or rather, what output? Hah!) is different. I don’t have the innate talent, nor did I put in any time to nurture and build up skills required to do what I see others are doing. I love crafting and I like making things. However, like my piano lessons, I never put enough hours into the training to make up for the lack of natural talent. My thoughts are all over the place and I’m typing as they come.

I know you need to put in the time and effort to master something. Perhaps I shouldn’t feel slighted when mum said I’m a Jack (well, Jane) of all trades but master of none. I have also mentioned before that I am not creative on demand. It just has to come and often times, it’s a a rehash of something else I’ve seen. I don’t think I’ve come up with anything original. I like solving puzzles and maybe that’s why modifying something come easier than coming up with something new? Eg. I don’t have an amigurumi pattern for a lop eared rabbit, so I wing it and made my own from the basic information I know of how to crochet.

Why am I typing this out at the moment? I’m not sure.

I guess I’m trying to convince myself that if I treat this little shop and side hustle as a hobby, I won’t feel as pressured. I’ve been procrastinating so much and yet I wonder out loud, “How do people do it all?” I read that procrastination can be due to fear of failing. I don’t understand this phrase entirely because I procrastinate often (oops!) but I don’t think I have a fear of failing. I think I’m just lazy (this is being completely honest) and don’t want to do it until I HAVE to – because I have other things I can do! Like watching a Youtube video or playing another round of my mobile game. Heh! However, now that I’ve knuckled down to do my shop update, it wasn’t hard. I just had to start!

I guess a little introspection today led me to a new understanding of why they say procrastination is connected to a fear of failure. If I didn’t update my shop, then even there are no sales, it’s okay. I didn’t “fail” my update because I didn’t do it! Does that make sense? I think I’ve been looking at how successful other people’s launches and updates are…then feel really small because I haven’t experienced such a thing before. Now, I’m not saying this to get any pity sales. In fact, I don’t want people to be buying just for the sake of helping/showing support. I think I am a practical person (I like to give practice gifts that are useful to someone)? So I hope those who have purchased something did because they will use the items or really like them. For that, I am very grateful. Life is too short to pretend to like something – there is no longevity to it.

Perhaps I am just better at being a supporter than the main act. Or maybe I haven’t found my main act yet. Who knows.

In the mean time, I really need to trim down my sticker stash. Start using them instead of just collecting them in my sticker folder. In a way, I think I should also trim down my hobbies. I feel a bit of anxiety when I think about all the things I want and need to do – the increase in heart rate, the running thoughts. There is only so much I can do in the time that I have. Why not do what is enjoyable and fills my happy tank? Not worrying about how/where to find time to do such and such. Let it come naturally, let go of things that bring no benefit to my spiritual, mental and physical well being.

I should take my own self care sticker’s advice…

Launching shop on website

It’s the wee hours in the morning, I can’t really feel my fingers or toes as it’s turned cold after a couple of hot days here in SA. Weather has been a bit temperamental (to say the least) – I don’t remember ever experiencing or hearing about hail this often in Spring (or any time of year, really).

I’m at the dining table, trying to ensure website is working and has the right photos/links…and stopping once in a while to watch my two floofs sleeping/stretching on the ottoman. Sorry, babies. You’ll just have to sleep with the lights on while I work.

One may wonder why I “torture” myself to meet this deadline but it’s been a long time coming. It’s probably not the best day to launch according to the Internet but I’m going ahead as I want to make it happen in October! In my true procrastinator self, I have set it for the very last day of October. Heh! It seems like a mammoth task but it’s because I’ve been putting it off for so long that trying to list about a 100 items at one go is indeed very daunting! I hope after this initial teething pain, it will be a smoother ride maintaining the site.

8 months on Etsy and I have no regrets starting there. Learnt a few lessons (still learning!) trying to make my small business work – some more painful (financially) than others. I am very grateful for family and friends who have more faith in me than myself (hah!) and also appreciate the community I found on Instagram this year. The generosity of sharing knowledge and wisdom is priceless!

Moving forward, I don’t know if I’ll even get any traffic on this site – I haven’t been blogging for the longest time (not like that makes any difference hehe) nor do I have a following on social media. I still believe in doing things organically and see what happens from there – I don’t lose anything from continuing to do what I love and enjoy. I will still have the Etsy shop running but perhaps it will not be as well stocked as my own website. I won’t be doing international orders here as the tax bit is a bit much for a small ikan bilis (small fry) like me – that’s a plus with Etsy as they handle the taxes side for you.

Pray for me or wish me luck!

P/S: Will be putting up the story of how I came to be an “accidental” bunmum after all this! Hopefully before Christmas! 🤪